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You’ve done all these things and it didn’t work. Of you, you must first change your perception of yourself. If you want to change the world’s perception With you tells me you will soon chase the easy high. Then what will you do? Every experience I have Soon you will face the anticipatedĭisappointment in the eyes of your loved one when you make a promise. Steal from your own mother to chase that high. Soon you will have to reconcile within yourself that you are a person who will Soon you will have to work for that high. But soon that praise will taper off when your newfound That high comes from the praise and confidence of your family and friends when You crave the high only an external source can provide. Heal yourself from within and conquer your demons, recovery will never last. Learned from you is just when I let my guard down, you’ll move in the for next Relapse until that much time multiplied by ten has passed. However long it was, I will sit on pins and needles waiting for you to Maybe you were clean for a month last time, maybe a You are an accomplice to this disease.ĭoesn’t happen instantly, and trust isn’t rebuilt overnight. They must live with those consequences and so do you. With high blood pressure can’t eat a pound of bacon everyday and expect to be A diabetic must choose to avoid certain foods. Medicine has someone been able to reverse the effects of not managing their diseaseīy blaming the disease itself. Those with high blood pressure must take medicationsĪnd eat sensibly to avoid the same complications. Diabetics must manage their disease or face complications like amputations, Calling addiction a disease does not absolve you from the consequences of Taking responsibility for your choices is one of those deafening actions I speak The fact that you blame your addiction instead of To your recovery, but that doesn’t mean I don’t remember them. I agree constantly reminding you of past indiscretions is counteractive Past with each new start, you want me to wipe the slate clean. Not a one and done token gesture.Īctions will always speak louder than your words. I still hope and pray you’ll find your way, but I need to see action – long term, sustained action. So, please understand why your words are meaningless. Each time you shredded my trust, rewarded my confidence with lies and betrayals. Each time I hoped, and I prayed, each time I put my faith in you, each time I waited – cautiously optimistic and each time you crushed me. Fool me twice, shame on me”? Well, you’ve fooled me hundreds of times. You know the saying “Fool me once, shame on you.
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But, for me, it sounds like the thousand other ‘this time will be different’’s I’ve heard. Maybe when you say it, you believe that this will be the time you’re able to change your life. Often, you are angry when I won’t believe your claims that this time will be different. It is because I love you, I cannot help you kill Or a place to stay or one more chance, it means I don’t love you. One of your favorite go-to accusations is that because I won’t give you money, Loving you is what makes your addiction so painful to witness. They aren’t abstract beings unattached to us.Īll, I love you. They aren’t strangers for whom we can pretend not toĬare. TheyĪre our brothers, our sisters, our nieces, our nephews, our cousins, ourįriends and our parents. I say our addicts because they belong to us. When there’s a lucid moment for the recipient to reflect. So, what do we do? I’ve found the written word (especially Or we know anything said will be twistedĪnd refuted the moment it leaves our lips, forgotten amid the excuses and Many times, the opportunity to speak meaningful words is lost because we don’t I’ve never been great at holding my tongue (shocker, I know). Worry that the last conversation we’ll have with our addict will be filled with Walking the fine line between helping and enabling, always hovering in the grayĪrea between hope and reality, always wavering between speaking our mind and Addiction is so commonplace in our country we all have at